Day 19 of 365:
Today I have been decidedly self-indulgent: I sorta-kinda-mostly played hooky from being a responsible, money earning adult.
I went shopping and bought myself a new outfit. Which is totally justifiable as I have some work-type events coming up that I need a new outfit for.
I watched TV in the middle of the day! (only for 30 minutes though. I felt like I was wasting my time…)
And then I took a couple of hours to update my online portfolio with some of my latest photography projects.
This last item is something I wish I had time to do more often. I may not take as many photographs as I used to, but I am trying to keep it up. What was once supposed to be my career has been pushed to the very back corner of my life. The truth is, I’ve never been able to make money with my photography like I have with my work in marketing, writing and project management. Therefore, it is not a priority in my professional life. My subject matter and style are very self-indulgent and personal. I have always leaned toward what you might classify as “fine art” photography, preferring to capture images of flowers and nature over portraits of babies and people.
It’s a catch 22, though, focusing on the artistic side of my trade. Nature and trees and forests are not as marketable and as easy to sell as services in, say, wedding photography are. (Though I do love doing product “table top” shoots for people.)
And so it is that my art will always remain more of a passion than a lively hood.
Selfish or not, I am happy with how I spent my day – though I always find it difficult to take time out for just “me”. I try not to feel guilty or lazy, but a big part of me does. All of this only leaves me wondering what it is that makes me feel selfish about spending the day as I did….buying clothes for myself, not actively making money, working on my photography…
It is now after 4pm….kids are coming home from school. Dogs need to be walked and dinner needs to be made.
Now I must switch from being Self-Indulgent back over to Responsible-Adult.
If you’re wondering, here’s a link to View Finder, my online portfolio. It’s an ongoing (and very slow) Work In Progress. If you’ve been following my Writing The Girl posts for the past little while, you will recognize some of these images….
Thanks for reading my ramblings!