You know what December 31st is, right?
It’s an ending and a beginning – at the same time.
We are on the last day of one year, but we are already facing a new one and wondering what lies down the road, around the corner, and on the other side of the hill.
One of the articles in my WP newsfeed this morning was The Daily Post with a prompt encouraging me to write about the possibility of being able to be anyone I want to be as of tomorrow – the first day of 2016.
Great. Sounds like fun. Let’s be creative….Only – I couldn’t think of anyone! Maybe a few years ago I would have been able to do this exercise with ease. Maybe I would have written a cute and witty post about becoming Wonder Woman. But honestly, after the year I have just had, I really only want to be me.
2015 was equal parts difficult, challenging, joyful and triumphant for me. Both personally and professionally. And now, on this, the last day of the year that was, what I remember most about 2015 actually happened in 2014.
You see, exactly one year ago today, New Year’s Eve, I was at a funeral. I was ending and starting the year under a cloud of misery, and it totally sucked. You know what death does for the living? It puts life into perspective. You take stock. You do a personal audit. You wonder how your eulogy will read. Morbid, but true.
Have you even been to a funeral on New Years Eve? Talk about poignancy. I remember going home and drinking a lot of wine as I rang in the New Year with my kids and my husband – wondering what the next 365 days had in store for us. I remember feeling dread as we counted down the seconds to 2015. Yes, it was as depressing as it sounds.
But I am not one to dwell……
So, on January 1st, I took that misery and decided to just live in 2015. To just be me, with less apologising. To ask for things that I want. Create opportunities for myself and say the word “no” less. To only say the word “yes” if I truly meant it.
Do. Write. Run. Dance. Sing. Laugh. Love.
All the stuff that sounds cliche and cheesy, and probably is…but you know what? That’s exactly what I did. And it was awesome. And also hard. But mostly, it was rewarding.
So why would I want to start out the next 365 days being anybody else – especially now that I know just being is right for me.
And so it begins! 365 Days of Writing! I have been holding my breath and preparing myself for this for the last two months. I am knee-deep in editing my novel, and loving the challenge. One of my goals for 2015 was to get back to blogging – which was more difficult than I thought it would be. So here I am! Who’s with me? #365daysofwriting starts tomorrow. Yikes!
HAPPY NEW YEAR! See you in 2016….